Because of the situations I've been in throughout my life, I have spent much of it doing what I like to call, "singing for my supper." Entertaining people to survive. Being constantly cheerful and speaking about the blessings and upsides of my dire circumstances, when in fact, they were so traumatic and depleting I could sometimes hardly breathe.
So I performed, acted, embellished to influence others into thinking I was solid. People like to help people who are solid and have a positive outlook. But afterward, I would be so sorely exhausted, in panic mode, anxious beyond words.
And so I sang, performed, joked, praised and manipulated everyone around me in order to put a roof over my kids' heads and food in their mouth. I did what I had to, always thinking I was an extrovert, never understanding why I was so spent after each encounter. Now I get it. Though everyone labeled me extrovert, and I believed it, I now understand the clear signs that I am massively introverted. And that's okay. It just means that, while I can still perform, I need down time. I have to allow myself that. And everyone will just have to understand.
Here is a lovely picture of what, exactly, it means to be an introvert.
It's really amusing the difference perspective has on our lives. At this moment, I have $8. and some change in my checking account. I may or may not have enough gas to get me to church and back tomorrow, I passed 3 kidney stones this week, and I've never felt better or more hopeful in my life. The difference is hope. We have to cling to it. Always. I know now, more than ever, that I am a child of God and that I am fulfilling his plans for me. It sounds cliche, but it's all good. I am at #55 of the Amazon top sellers list in my genre. Hallelujah and pass the cornbread!
OK, the ebook edition of my new book, The Convict, the Rookie Card and the Redemption of Gertie Thump, went live yesterday. Today, it hit #63 in the top 100 for its genre!
Created By: Becky Rickman
Web Tease: Whether you are for, against, or undecided on the issue of gay marriage, if you have children there will be questions to answer. The best time to formulate your answers is before they come up.
Gay marriage and the issues and impact surrounding it are all over the news. This is a heated topic, and the chances of your children asking you about it are very high. Don't put off studying the issues. Now is the time to find the best way to explain this to your child in age-appropriate terms they can understand.
Here are some insights on when and how to approach the subject:
Don't fear the talk. Be calm. State the facts in an age-appropriate way and tell your children where you stand on the issues. Avoid labeling and slandering and teach love not necessarily for the lifestyle, but for all mankind. Once old enough, point out the political, financial and moral implications. Discuss whether this should be a state or religious issue. Ask them their opinions and respond with yours.
So, my book galleys have arrived and hopefully my new printer will follow shortly. My job is to print it out, read it, scrutinize it and approve it so that it can go *GASP* into print and be released to the public. I am more grateful than I can ever express to WiDo Publishing for holding my hand all the way through the process and for being so supportive and encouraging.
Also a special shout-out to all my friends and family who have LIKED and SHARED my updates, spreading the word. Marketing is so hard for me, but I'm learning. I just can't wait to hold an actual book in my hand.
Remember it's not too late to enter my Goodreads Giveaway! The link is on the left side of my site.
I've started, but am not publicly promoting, my new blog about changing the physical me. It's a new year and I'm one of those geeks who really likes new beginnings. I'm going strictly vegan and holding myself accountable by reporting to you each day my progress.
I'm focusing on family this new year as well. I'm still putting the finishing touches on a cool book of family pics and info that I'm going to send to all the grandkids so that they can know their cousins better. With one family in Missouri, one in New York, one in Maryland and one in Idaho, it's tough. But hopefully this will pull everyone closer.
Also going to try real hard to finish 9 generations of family history complete with family group sheets. I have some lines that have been done back to the 600 AD's, but there is a lot more to do.
Also, as a final note, I'm out of Vodka. OK that's family joke. Everyone knows I haven't had a drink in 37 years.
Happy 2014, everyone!!
Becky Lyn Rickman
Mom of many, servant to my cats, Cary Grant's other girlfriend (still trying to work out the logistics of that one).